Since the very beginning, my wife had checked out out marriage. She was never interested in getting married. It has nothing much to do with me. But, it has a lot to do with our culture and the idea of marriage. She can't bear the idea of being my wife.
My wife was 18 years old when we got married to me. Our was an arrange marriage. Arrange marriage are very common in Indian culture. My wife just finish her studies and shewanted to continue her studies and never wanted to get married that early. I do not know anything about this.
Additional to this, she always wanted to fall in love head on toe with a guy, before she get married. BUt her entire dreams were crushed when her parents had arranged her to marry me.
We live in the same house, we use the same room and we sleep in the same bed... but we were total strangers. I do not know anything about her, at that time. She do not want to share with me anything. She do not talk to me. And, she would treat me as though I am an invisible human being staying there.
More over, we never had sex at all, even though we were married... Not until 6 months and 23 days after our marriage.... Wow! I counted them!
One morning, she approached me, and handed me a letter. It was unbelievable. That was the first time, my wife approached me. My heart was beating faster than ever, and I was excited. As fast as my heart was beating, it stopped so suddenly, the moment I lay my eyes on the letter.
DIVORCE...!!!!
Something i know i will eventually face. I have spend sleepless night, trying to avoid this day. I wanted to be with my wife. I love her. But, she does not want to give a chance.
She went to the kitchen after handing me the letter. I was left there.. at the doorstep... My head began to explode.. and My whole day was a nightmare. I almost ran into a school boy.. I was not concentrating in meetings. I scolded my secretary.. and it was a hell day that i went through..
I needed a break..
I have put up with all her irritating attitudes.
She never respected me as a husband..
She dont even treat me as a human being..
But i was very tolerant..
I was not angry..
I never exploded..
I was patient..
I was humble...
Despite all these, i still could not save my marriage...
I just dont know how....
I book a flight to Singapore. I wondered around Singapore alone. It was i was the only one on a boat in the middle of the sea. There were so many people on the street. It ws New Year.. Everyone was celebrating, but I was wondering.. craving.
I was dining in one of the most finest restaurant in Singapore.. But i was not enjoying my meals.
I see so many things.. but my brain were not registering anything..
The only thing in my mind was.. our wedding day..our wedding day..our wedding day.. and the day i first saw her.. my wife
I do not want to let her go. I wanted her back badly in a big way. I didn't understand why i couldn't have it. All we needed was for my wife to just change her mind and accept our wedding and forget her ridiculous break up plan.
I had tried so many thing and tactics to impress my wife, but nothing had worked all these day. With day divorce letter in my hands, i wanted to get an attorney, but, i do not know whether i can win the case. Women always have an advantage to get a divorce easily compared to guys.
At this point, I was just too tired to pick up myself up and try something new or better.. Instead, i went to are bar and drank until i was carried up to my room.
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